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whiskyinmind
22 March 2005 @ 06:55 pm
 
I'm having a major panic situation right now and it's not helped by the fact I keep watching Gilmore Girls. (thanks for the dvds [livejournal.com profile] engelsteorra I owe you! *g*)

So, I have a character study ficlet due tomorrow for [livejournal.com profile] with_character and I have no idea what to submit. I went round work saying "what should I do?" to which the reply invariably came: "your job?" or "some work, maybe?" or even "who the hell are you, get away from me you crazy woman - someone call security!!"

Then I thought to myself: Self? You pay for this journal not just to have the benefit of multiple user pictures and less downtime than those lesser, non-paying, members. Oh no, you pay for this journal so you can add polls to it when the whim takes you!

So, after taking the medication which stops me talking to myself in public and the other medication which fights the superiority complex (I don't talk about it much - I have an inferiority complex about my superiority complex, or as my ex-friend Zara used to say, I have an inferiority Cornflakes about it), I made a poll so you can all help and take the decision away from me so when they all point and laugh I can say "Ha! It's not my fault - they all told me to do it!" (Why yes, I am slightly manic right now, why do you ask?)

Anyways, the ficlet is to centre around a pivotal moment in Xander's life and I'm limiting myself to something which happened in the run of the show. So that's 143 epsodes here people! (me? bitter about the marked absence from CWDP? Never!) Anyways, somehow or other I've narrowed it down to seven. One per season. Some of these are written, some of these are almost written, some are nebulous ideas floating around in the atmosphere which if they are picked as the ultimate winner will cause me to break down in tears sobbing "No! For the love of Pete, No!!!". But hey, no pressure here folks...

I will write/have written these already so they will all be posted, it's just... which will I submit to the community? Which do you want to read? (see? there I go again, assuming other people read anything I write... someone help me please!!!)

[Poll #459325]
 
 
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[identity profile] rileysaplank.livejournal.com on March 22nd, 2005 01:49 pm (UTC)
So you're not going with the one I saw earlier?

[identity profile] whiskyinmind.livejournal.com on March 22nd, 2005 02:22 pm (UTC)
what? the season one "The Decision" one?

It's still an option.

They all are.

I need sleep, someone take these Gilmore Girls dvds away from me please?
[identity profile] rileysaplank.livejournal.com on March 22nd, 2005 02:23 pm (UTC)
Well I would be quite willing to drive round there and take them away from you, but I'm working in the morning as well and I wouldn't get back until at least 1 in the morning even if I left now.
[identity profile] engelsteorra.livejournal.com on March 22nd, 2005 03:24 pm (UTC)
Mwahahaha! I have infected you with the Gilmore Girls love. All shall fall down before my TV-addicting genius. ;o)

*goes off to watch a season 4 episode and plot world domination....*
[identity profile] engelsteorra.livejournal.com on March 22nd, 2005 03:29 pm (UTC)
OK, I'm being retarded. What do you mean by 'The Return'?

(Thankfully I get all the rest...)

I would have gone with 'The Split' for season five, it was after the self-discovery in that episode that he left the boy behind and became a man.

Argh! I'm talking all philosophically about Xander... Unclean!

[grin]
[identity profile] whiskyinmind.livejournal.com on March 22nd, 2005 10:15 pm (UTC)
*g* One of the other authors on the site has already done a ficlet set around the end of The Replacement (moving out of the basement) so I don't want to step on anyones toes by doing the same episode.

The Return. What it says on the tin really, coming back to Sunnydale with no prospects, no job, no real future, and staying. :)

And ha! I knew I could sucker you into talking (and more importantly thinking) about him if I kept on at you!
[identity profile] engelsteorra.livejournal.com on March 23rd, 2005 03:38 am (UTC)
Now you say it it seems so obvious. Maybe I should actually watch some Buffy again to refresh my memory. I'm not sure I've actually sat down purposefully to watch an ep since it finished. Bad Sharon.

And darn you and your sneaky ways! I'll not be tricked so easily again.... No siree. ;o)
[identity profile] smhwpf.livejournal.com on March 22nd, 2005 05:56 pm (UTC)
Which decision? Staking Jesse? Asking Buffy out? Going after Buffy in PG?

If you do The Lie I would very much like to read it. I have given myself the part of Xander in Becoming in the Readthrough I'm organising. So The Lie is the single biggest dramatic question I have to think about!
[identity profile] whiskyinmind.livejournal.com on March 22nd, 2005 10:24 pm (UTC)
The Decision - for the season one ficlet I was debating between going to force Angel to help him find Buffy in PG and the one I ended up writing, making the decision to go follow her in the Harvest. That seemed to flow better to me. I didn't really want to write the staking Jesse one because I thought it would be a little too safe, and the asking her to the dance? I actually forgot all about it! Sorry!

The Lie - this is one of the ones which in all honesty will make me break down if it wins the poll. I've written in five times so far and I hate all five attempts at it. One more shot today and I'm determined to nail it, it's such a pivotal thing not just in a fictional character's life but in the perception of that character by the audience. I know we've had this debate before but why do you think he lied? (and how much do I want to come to the readthrough now?! Can't though - too many other committments right now.)
[identity profile] smhwpf.livejournal.com on March 23rd, 2005 04:09 am (UTC)
I was following the debate with interest on [livejournal.com profile] liz_marcs' journal recently. I agree that his primary motive was that Buffy would not be able to fight as effectively if she thought there was a possibility he was about to get his soul back. It was the last thing she needed to know at the time. But, after reading the aforementioned debate, I'm more inclined to think that there were mixed motives, that hatred for Angel was part of it. In fact, I suspect he probably wasn't sure where one motive stopped and the other began. As someone said, he could have not told her about the curse without putting those particular words into Willow's mouth.

Not telling Buffy was necessary, but what he said also had an unfortunate and unforseen consequence; when the curse did work, and Buffy realised that (so she supposed), Willow and Xander had both lied to her, had told her to 'kick his ass' when they were actually trying the curse again, she must have felt totally used. Like her friends were treating her as a tool, rather than as a person. So it probably contributed to her leaving Sunnydale. On top of everything else, she had even lost them, or that was how it must have seemed to her at the time.

This may all have something to do with why Xander never came clean about it; he must have felt very guilty about it, unsure of what his motives really were.

And someone's really gotta right the conversation they all had after Selfless... know if anyone worth reading already has?