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10 November 2007 @ 07:19 pm
For My Sister  
What I wish I could say

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you

Yes, I heard this sung (not all that well considering the singer is one of the best vocalists on the show) on X Factor. I hate [livejournal.com profile] wenchpixie for hooking me into Reality TV
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[identity profile] purplephoenix03.livejournal.com on November 10th, 2007 07:30 pm (UTC)
Because of You by Kelly Clarkson? I love that song.

As for the sister thing... *hugs* I'm so sorry :(
[identity profile] whiskyinmind.livejournal.com on November 10th, 2007 07:35 pm (UTC)
*hugs you tight*

it's funny how sometimes there's a song that just hits right there, y'know? The first time I heard this song was coming out of a therapy session where I'd spoken for the entire hour about how hard it was to get my sister to recognise me for who I am. So first time I heard it, it hit hard. And then hearing it again tonight (not the best version, god love her but Nikki didn't sing it well even though she has an amazing voice) after having an exceptionally bad day family-wise? It was like... serendipity I suppose.
wenchpixie: hold me j2[personal profile] wenchpixie on November 10th, 2007 10:22 pm (UTC)
Ha. You know you love me really.

It's a good song, and definitely applicable - I've got the album if you're wanting it?
[identity profile] whiskyinmind.livejournal.com on November 10th, 2007 10:24 pm (UTC)
You're back from dinner already?

I have the album, haven't listened to it for ever though. Plus... does it give you a hint as to why I sing in my chest voice? *grins*
wenchpixie: Autumn Leaves[personal profile] wenchpixie on November 10th, 2007 10:29 pm (UTC)
*snorts* me either, although it's a good one. Hrm. I really ought to have a dig through CDs-that-are-not-Steve.

Yeah, early finish cos M&D were on the train today, so didn't want to head home to late. It was bloody good though; Steak..... YUM.

D's up to see 306 atm (and making a lot of ewwww noises. I feel he may have an onld lady trauma somewhere I don't know about)
[identity profile] whiskyinmind.livejournal.com on November 10th, 2007 10:31 pm (UTC)
haven't watched 3.06 yet - saving it for tomorrow when my head isn't about to explode.

Steak... yum! I kinda just realised that all I've eaten today was toast and a bird-shaped biccit. Ooops. I should eat...
wenchpixie: Dean shooty colt ahbl[personal profile] wenchpixie on November 10th, 2007 10:35 pm (UTC)
That seems fair... and you'll see what I mean when you see it....

Yes. More than biccits and bread would be sensible *pokes* go and eat food. Now *makes glary face*
[identity profile] whiskyinmind.livejournal.com on November 10th, 2007 10:36 pm (UTC)
but if I go get food I'll miss the end of high school musical ... yeah, I can't believe I'm watching that
wenchpixie: dude[personal profile] wenchpixie on November 10th, 2007 10:39 pm (UTC)
would you like me to shoot you?

If you were a horse, I'd shoot you.
[identity profile] whiskyinmind.livejournal.com on November 10th, 2007 10:40 pm (UTC)
I should be shot. I'd shoot me too, if I had a gun.

On the plus side, I did go grab another biccit and I still think this guy looks like he's 12 so...
wenchpixie: hell yeah dean[personal profile] wenchpixie on November 10th, 2007 10:46 pm (UTC)
that's alright then, you're not irredemible.

He is 12. He uses fake id.
[identity profile] whiskyinmind.livejournal.com on November 10th, 2007 10:48 pm (UTC)
*grins*

I may even go make a cheesy omlette once this is done.
wenchpixie: hell yeah dean[personal profile] wenchpixie on November 10th, 2007 10:54 pm (UTC)
good. The glary face is only going to give me wrinkles.
[identity profile] whiskyinmind.livejournal.com on November 10th, 2007 10:55 pm (UTC)
then again... cheese, at this time of night?

*grins*
wenchpixie: Dean hmmh[personal profile] wenchpixie on November 10th, 2007 11:29 pm (UTC)
*snorts*

could lead to spn dreams?
[identity profile] emeraldswan.livejournal.com on November 11th, 2007 03:41 am (UTC)
{{hugs you tight}}

You have a copy of the original version of the song? If not, would you like one?
[identity profile] whiskyinmind.livejournal.com on November 11th, 2007 01:41 pm (UTC)
*hugs you*

Thank you honey, that would be awesome!