10 November 2005 @ 10:39 am
Um. Oooops  
So I got me some sleeping pills yesterday. Guess what? I overslept.

Ooops.

I'm still feeling crappy so I've called in a sick day, but hey - at least I know the medication works! (plus, now I have a whole day to curl up under the duvet and write. Speaking of, someone sneak into my laptop and hide both free cell and 3D pinpall please? Cheers! I should have the OFWI draft finished today definitely, it's odd, once Willow started talking I got all the dialogue done, now I need to put actual prose around that. I've only done that with one other story in the past, and that was a pre-ship B/X fic. Heh!

Between Lies and Dreams on the other hand (my NaNo novel) is still dragging its feet. I will get this done, I swear it, but it's so much harder than I thought it'd be. And I thought it would be pretty difficult.

My GP was patronising yesterday, I've had issues with him in the past (he actually accused me of being a malingerer whilst I was sitting in his surgery in immense pain, with a neck brace on, unable to move my upper body at all (plus he gave me a neck brace which was too large, making the problem worse - I have an extra piece of bone on one of the vertebrae in my neck, it traps nerves and causes real problems every now and then). Yesterday he was actually quite nice, or tried to be, but I just felt like he was patronising me. Yes I'm depressed, yes I'm an insomniac, but I'm also an adult, I don't need him patting me on the shoulder and telling me I'm doing well for not crying in his office. Oh, and if I want to call it 'help' I don't need him telling me that's the wrong term. It is help. It's helping me help myself, that's still help. I have no problem using the word because 'support' doesn't cover it. Him telling me I'm using the wrong word just pissed me off yesterday, but if it'd been a bad day it could have knocked any sense of self-esteem out the window.

Oh - I have a favour to ask [livejournal.com profile] emeraldswan? Could you take over [livejournal.com profile] zeppo_stillness this week? If you've not got time (I know you're really busy right now) don't worry about it, I'll put it on hiatus for a week, I just have no time at all right now to concentrate on it.
 
 
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[identity profile] jgracio.livejournal.com on November 10th, 2005 03:51 am (UTC)
Why do you let things like your GP 'tude get to you? Does he matter to you? Does he know you from somewhere? Besides being a professional whom I hope you trust to deal with your health issues what does his opinion of you matter?

If it doesn't, ignore him for anything other than professional matters. Doesn't matter if you're using the "wrong" word. Who cares? Don't let his condescending attitude get to you.

Really. Allowing random, non important people to affect you negatively on self esteem is not the way to go. Self esteem boosts are okay though. :)


Heh, I'm an opinionated, everything's easy kinda guy. At least to other people it is. :)

And hum, back to my don't really understand women thing, maybe this was like a rethorical question, not really looking for self important posts on how to live your life. :)
[identity profile] whiskyinmind.livejournal.com on November 10th, 2005 03:58 am (UTC)
Heh! You know that's actually a damn good question, unfortunately I don't have an answer. I honestly don't know why it gets to me, I guess sometimes I'm just a little thin-skinned (one might almost say paranoid) about how other people see me that things like that get to me far more than they should.

You're right though, his opinion of me doesn't matter, and I shouldn't let it matter.
[identity profile] jgracio.livejournal.com on November 10th, 2005 05:02 am (UTC)
Random people's negative opinion's shouldn't matter all that much because they're "easy".

It's easy to put someone down. It's easy to say you're whining, look ridiculous, etc. etc.

Far harder to say good stuff, that takes thought.

You need to develop some internal filters. Like spam. Move all that stuff to the Who gives a crap folder.

Hey, wanna buy my book on self help? No? Aw shucks, I never get to sell it. Gets a man down it does. ;)
[identity profile] willowmina.livejournal.com on November 10th, 2005 05:14 am (UTC)
Can you change your GP. This guys supposed to be there to keep you in good health, and if he doesn't take you seriously (the accusation about malingering... I would probably have kicked him) then he's not going to be able to do that.

I'm sure you shouldn't have to put up with him though.

*hugs*
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[identity profile] velvetwhip.livejournal.com on November 10th, 2005 07:34 am (UTC)
Your GP sounds like a complete D**KWEED!!!!!


Gabrielle
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[identity profile] emeraldswan.livejournal.com on November 10th, 2005 08:12 am (UTC)
Hey Sho,

Considering the fact that I don't even know what's going on with [livejournal.com profile] dawn_stillness I don't think it's smart to leave me in charge of [livejournal.com profile] zeppo_stillness. Will be doing a post here very soon about what all's going on. . .

{{hugs}} Miss you!
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ext_14447: bellaobsession (credit: prfctnstfreak)[identity profile] aaronlisa.livejournal.com on November 10th, 2005 11:00 am (UTC)
If you need help with [profile] zeppo_stillness and if [personal profile] emeraldswan can't help out, I can always help out in a pinch, just to let you know.

**hugs**

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