Not sure how I feel right now. Today was my second appointment with the therapist. I wasn't looking forward to it, I was going through thte whole mental process of psyching myself up to go. I didn't want to go, I wanted phone and cancel, this is the same as last time - hell, even when I was in the car park last time I was thinking "maybe I should just drive out again." Getting into the room is hard, it takes so much psyching myself up to do it.

I really didn't want to go today, but I was going, except... the therapist has called in sick so my appointment is cancelled.

I'm really not sure how I feel about that.

It has resulted in me having a completely free day however, I had already phoned into work to take the afternoon off when the hospital called. So.. nothing to do and lots of time to do it...